Sunday, March 29, 2020

Day 4 of the lockdown

Saturday - 28 March 2020

10 am - Woke up
12 pm - Had brunch
Now I have the entire day with me and today I decided to read some good magazines and books. So I opened my netbook and started reading. My phone was right besides me.
**Notification ring** It is a new WhatsApp message. Now most, I mean, 90% of messages are related to Covid-19, which is expected considering the current situation.
After few minutes later
**Notification ring** I have few Facebook, tiktok and Instagram notifications. I checked all of them and cleared them.
**Notification ring** - Another notification, another message.

Now I completely lost track that I was reading. So I decided to silent my phone and kept it aside from my desk. It was actually a nice co-incidence that the first magazine I opened and I came across a very nice article related to what I observed - How these notifications and social apps are not allowing us to enjoy small things in life. The below article is from "Yoga and Total Health" magazines March 2020 edition.





(This article is written by Pooja Shah, an ERP consultant who likes to teach yoga. She is also a freelance writer of poems and short articles)

After reading this article, I decided that I am not going to check any WhatsApp message and keep my phone aside for an entire day. Only answer calls and reach out to the phone when needed.

Saturday, March 28, 2020

Day 3 of the lockdown

Friday - 27 March 2020

It was 6 in the evening and I was talking to my office colleague about how this lock-down has changed the way we are working and looking at overall different aspect of life. We mutually agreed on the fact that life is getting boring as the days pass by. We cannot go outside, cannot meet friends, stuck at home and have very little interesting things to do. We also agreed on the fact that this is required so as to make sure that the coming months, we and our families (and our country) do not suffer because of the pandemic.

While on phone, I opened my house front door and started walking down the stairs. From past week it has become my routine to walk the stairs at least 2-3 times a day. And maybe when I am there on the ground floor, have a look around the compound and check what is happening outside the main gate. So, I walked towards the gate as I finished talking on phone. I was looking outside and saw a girl riding her scooter coming towards the gate. She stopped by the gate and spent few seconds looking around. I was wondering in my mind, that, how stupid of her to get outside of the house and roam around like this. She is creating a risk to her and for the society as well. As I was thinking about this, she unlocked her scooter seat and from the storage area, removed a packet of Parle-G biscuits. It didn't take time for me to realize that she must have brought these biscuits for the dogs. She unpacked the biscuits and kept them on the side walk at different places for the dogs to eat. Once done, she saw me standing at the gate. She gave me a smile, put her dupatta around her face as a mask and left.

One moment I was thinking how stupid that girl was and other moment, I was overwhelmed by her good deed.

Sunday, February 3, 2019

New Story Coming Soon! ......

Working on a new short story. Wait for the new one to be published soon.

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

My Life Partner - Part 3 - Conclusion

This is the third and concluding part of the story. If you have not yet read previous parts, please click on the links below before reading this part


Part 3: And it rained again!

Sushma boarded the train. Arijit and Sushma kept looking at each other through the window railings. Sushma slowly raised her hand out of the window and handed over a piece of paper to Arijit on which she had written: "I love you Arijit, May God make all your wishes come true". As the train was leaving, it had already started raining. Arijit stood there watching the train leave and at the same time also trying to catch one last glimpse of Sushma's beautiful face. It had been an hour since the sight of the train had disappeared in that heavy rain. Arijit was still standing there soaking in rain and looking in the direction the train left.

All along her way back home, Sushma was thinking how she would tell her parents about Arijit and convince them. Thinking about him, she did not realize that 5 hours had gone by and she had reached her destination. Sushma got out of the train to see her parents waiting to greet her. She smiled, although it was not the same heartfelt smile that would adorn her face usually. Her dad kept all her luggage in the car and they started driving back home. On her way back, she received a text from Arijit. "Have you reached home safely? Let me know." Sushma did not reply to that message. She needed some time to think. She needed time to think about what had happened in her life recently. She knew her Dad very well and that it would be one of the most difficult things for her to convince him. After all her dad had lost his daughter 3 years back because of this thing called "Love".

Vidya. That was her elder sister's name. She left this world just 3 years ago. Vidya was madly in love with Arjun, whom she had met during her college days. They both had promised each other to be together for entire life. But maybe, promises are meant to be broken. And Arjun did the same. After being together for almost 5 years and when Vidya asked him about marriage, Arjun declined and left her alone. Vidya was heartbroken. She tried to get away from her sorrows, but the worst of her feelings took over her and she decided to leave everything behind.

For the next 3 months after college was over, Arijit used to message Sushma regularly. But Sushma did not reply. She had not yet told her parents about him. Every time Sushma thought about a way to convince her dad, she would remember Vidya's face and her mind would just go blank. She knew her dad has not yet forgotten what happened and would never accept her relationship with Arijit. By now, Arijit had also slowly started losing hopes that Sushma would reply. He had started believing that she would never come back in his life. Every night he would try to sleep, but probably, sleep had become his enemy and he had made friendship with all the memories which would continuously replay in his mind. A girl who loved him so much had left him without giving him a reason. He knew she left because of her dad, a decision which was not convincing enough for him. After all, Sushma also never said anything about Vidya to him. Months after not hearing anything from Sushma, Arijit started getting busy with his office work. Without caring about his health, food, friends and time, he would continuously immerse himself into more and more work, just to keep himself busy. He was scared that if he would leave his mind idle for even for a minute, Sushma's thoughts would take over him.

Few more months passed by. Sushma used to regularly visit Arijit's social profile and spend time reading stories on his website. Those were the only things that had kept her connected to him so far. But today she felt different. Sushma had stopped receiving messages from Arijit. When she checked his website, the last post was about one month old. There were no updates on his social profile either.

4 Years Later:

Sushma had started working in a multinational company by now. Today on her way to the office, she was thinking about what her parents told her a few days back. They wanted her to get married now. They were worried and knew that if a girl's age crosses a limit, it would be difficult for them to find her a nice life partner. Her parents would bring a proposal every other week and every time Sushma ignored the topic replying "I'll think about it".

At the office, lost in her memories and blankly looking at her computer screen, Sushma heard the voice of Meera - her office colleague calling her name. Meera had a bright red card with shining embroidery design in her hand. Meera jokingly said "Sushma, my marriage is fixed with that idiot Sameer. You have to definitely be there, OK!",  and handed over the invitation card to her. Meera was looking very happy and Sushma could not stop but notice the amazing glow Meera had on her face. This was the same glow she wanted to be on her own face but now had no options but to wait for miracles to happen. Meera and Sameer loved each other and were together for last 6 years and now they were going to change their relationship in a love marriage. This was exactly same kind of marriage Sushma had wished for. All these years, she had not received any message from Arijit, neither did she hear anything about him. In a hope that she would meet Arijit, she even went to her college reunion. But Arijit was not there. She tried to ask her friends, but no one knew where he was. By now, she had started cursing herself. Why she did not reply to him. Why she did not take even little efforts to convince her parents. She wanted Arijit to contact her back, send a message to which she can reply and change everything back to how it was. After realizing her mistakes, she had started feeling guilty every day. As each day passed by her feelings of sorrow and guilt had started turning into anger against her own self. She just wanted to take revenge from herself. Standing at this intersection of her life where she cannot go back in past and neither ignore that her parents are getting older day by day, she decided of marrying anyone and move on, just to take revenge of her past. That is why when her parents told about a proposal yesterday, without thinking or asking anything, she agreed to meet the boy the very next day. But she had no idea, that the past from which she had now decided to escape, the same past was going to show up in front of her tomorrow.

That night, as always, Sushma was trying to sleep and by the time she slept it was almost time for the sun to rise. "Wake up, Sushma, Wake up!", her mom shouted trying to wake her up. It was almost 10 am and she had to meet the boy in another hour. Sushma did not have any desire to put any makeup or make herself look pretty. Sitting in her room, she was remembering Arijit's face which she had seen many years back. By then she saw her mom walk inside her room with a smile on her face. "Boy seems very nice. We like him, he would be the perfect life partner for you Sushma" mom said with a smile. She held Sushma's hand and started guiding her out of her room. As soon as she stepped outside her room, Sushma was stunned after what she saw. The person in front of whom she was standing, was no other than Arijit. "Arijit !!", those were the only words she was able to say. A thousand emotions ran through her heart. All these years being distant from each other, they were now just a few steps away. Sushma was overwhelmed with joy. She ran towards him and gave him a hug. She held him tight and did nothing but just happily cried with her head on his shoulders. She did not want to leave him as she wanted to convince her heart that now he would never go away. Arijit got closer to her ears and the first words he said were "I told you at the railway station - This is not the last time we meet."

Sushma's parents had also agreed for their marriage. After all, they had found a perfect life partner for Sushma who had all the qualities they wanted. But more than that there was no better feeling for them than to see how happy their daughter was when she was with Arijit.  Arijit and Sushma got married within next few months.

Standing on my balcony, thinking about all these memories, I suddenly felt someone's hand on my shoulders. It was Sushma's hand. I was getting late for office and Sushma was trying to call me and remind about it. Lost in memories. I didn't hear her voice until she brought me back into reality with her touch. With a naughty smile, Sushma said - "Kiske khwabon mein khoye hue ho, Mr. Arijit Kumar!"

I am sorry. Throughout this entire time, I forgot to tell you my name. I am Arijit Kumar. After Sushma left me, I never forgot her and never started loving her any less than how much I did when we first met. Yes, at some point in time, I had lost some hope, but not all. I always kept that piece of paper with me, on which she had written: "I love you Arijit, May God make all your wishes come true". And my eternal and only wish that was closest to my heart was to spend my entire life with her. I never knew about Sushma's sister, I never exactly knew the reason why she left me. But I knew that I need to go back and be more successful and better person than I would have ever thought of being. Become so capable that I can go and ask Sushma from her parents and they would never find a reason to reject me as her life partner. And here we are in each others' arms with the same feeling of trust, friendship, and love that we shared years back when we had first met. For past 10 years, our life has definitely changed. We have kids now, 2 cute ones - Rahul and Kajal. We spend more time loving and taking care of our kids and get less time to spend with each other. But whenever we do get time and hold hands, look into each others' eyes - there is no other feeling in this world better than that. I am glad we still share the same feeling of love we had when we first met.


As we stood there looking into each others' eyes, the sky had turned darker and clouds had taken over it. And so, it rained again!! Today it's the same rain, same two people, but now our journey is not destined away from each other but towards the same destination. This time the rains did not carry a feeling of sadness but they felt like tears of joy celebrating our lifelong togetherness and love.


The End.

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

My Life Partner - Part 2

This is the second part of the story. If you have not yet read part one, please click on the link below before reading this part.



Part 2:  The Promise and Railway Station

Sushma has always been a cheerful, lively and very thoughtful girl and now after being with her for almost 10 years, I know she is also a wonderful wife. I think she is a much better person than what I can ever be. I have never seen a hard working and dedicated person. She always used to care for her parents, never argue with them and happily, would do a thing that her parents asked for. Probably that is the reason she was also their favorite. Back when she was just about to turn into a teenager, she already had a dream - to become an engineer and study in RIT college. RIT college was far away from her home but was one of the best in the country. The only way she could study there was to convince her parents and allow her to stay in the college hostel. Someway or the other, she would bring up the topic of her studies every time she could and try to convince her parents to allow her to study at college hostel. Finally, after a long wait and lots of convincing, her parents agreed to send her to study and stay in the hostel - ONLY on one condition and a promise that - "Not to fall in love and stay away from boys and all these things which could hurt her father". Sushma gladly agreed and tied that promise with her conscience like a life of fish is tied with water.

Sushma had almost completed her Masters and never ever did she have an affair. Well, forget about having a boyfriend, she never ever even had a thought of it. But just when she was about to complete her Masters, something was about to change. Knowingly or unknowingly there was one face which had started showing up in her dreams. To give a name to this face, he was Arijit Kumar. Arijit was an engineer and had completed his Masters about 4 years back. Being an engineer, he was also a writer and a poet. Along with working as an aeronautical engineer at a highly reputed airline company, he used to visit college regularly for his reading sessions with fellow junior students. He used to spend time with fellow writers sharing and reading stories. He even had a website where he would share his stories. Sushma had never seen Arijit in person. She had only read what he had written, all thanks to her roommate who introduced her to Arijit's website a few weeks back. Although, she had never been with a man or felt what love is, but after reading Arijit's words, she could feel how love would be, how it feels to like someone and keep on thinking about them. There must have been some kind of magic in those words that even without meeting Arijit, her heart would beat faster just by thinking about him. She would know that the stories she is reading are not based on her, but someway or the other she has started to relate and trying to find herself in his writings. One day Sushma decided to send a friend request to Arijit on social networking site. After waiting for about an hour, her request was accepted. Just the acceptance notification sent a tingling feeling inside her.

Next day Sushma received a message on chat. Just like how first time friends start their conversation, Arijit texted - "Hi, how are you doing." Sushma was waiting for this message from last 12 hours, since the time they had become virtual friends. Slowly and steadily, they started talking to each other daily and this virtual friendship started becoming a reality. Sometimes on chat, sometimes on phone calls, they used to talk to each other for hours. Sushma used to share everything with him, not just what she did throughout the day, but also her feelings and emotions. And so did Arijit. Arijit liked to talk to her. After all, Sushma was also not a regular girl. Arijit by now had realized how dedicated, hardworking, caring and most of all, how beautiful Sushma was. Arijit also started to think about her the same way Sushma used to think about him. The more he started knowing about Sushma, more he started loving her. He understood even smallest of her dreams and feelings. This was probably the first time both of them understood what is real love. If not love, this would be closest someone would ever get to what is love.

A few months later:
It was the final day of the college and Sushma was packing her bags. After all, college is over and now she has to return home and wait for her final results. It was about 5-hour long journey to her way back home. She could not stop thinking of what to do. What would she say to Arijit when she would meet him today at the railway station. She packed her bags and although unwillingly but called a rickshaw and asked the driver to take her to the railway station.




Arijit was already waiting for her at the station. He was sitting on the bench with his hands folded, probably thinking the same thing that Sushma was - What would they say before they start their journey away from each other. Taking control of herself, Sushma sat beside him. They both looked at each other. They didn't have to say anything. Their eyes said what their heart's felt. Arijit held her hand and said, "I know for sure, this is not the last time we meet.". Sushma had to stop him in between..... She kept her hand on his lips so that he would stop talking. She gave him a kiss and without saying anything she had said Goodbye to him in the most loving way. From the past few days, Sushma was worried about one thing. The one thing, that she had forgotten after meeting Arijit. She had promised her parents that she will not fall in love, she would not betray their trust and hurt them!!

Click here to read Part 3: And it rained again!

Saturday, February 25, 2017

My Life Partner - Part 1

Everyone knows Mumbai is a city of lights and night life. But around 5 AM there is still part of the city which is sound asleep. Usually, to wake them up, the sun rises and puts a bright sunshine on the city. Mumbai was getting ready to wake its' people. There are few bunch of people who do wake up even before that happens. I am part of it. Sadly, my alarm clock does not let me sleep beyond 5.30 AM. 




Even though Mumbai is the city which never sleeps. When you wake up at 5.30 in morning, you will see that moon is sleepy. Skies are trying to assemble their belongings and sun is trying to spread its golden yellow glow. But the sun hasn’t risen yet. And as always I would stand at my balcony holding a cup of tea. I always liked this time of the day. Because this is the only time I would take a sip from my cup of tea and I would forget that I am an Engineer and go beyond my boundaries and be truly myself - how I wanted to be. My imaginative mind would be awakened. I would be a poet, a story writer, a musician. I could be anything that I wanted to be. I would stand there and imagine my old memories.I would also be practical and think about what I should do to go forward in my career. 

Basically, this is my time. Nobody else has control over it. Nobody can take it away from me. 

Otherwise, rest of my life is boring.  I have to be practical, talking to the client, solving their problems and doing all those things that 99% of people spend their life on. 

Taking a sip of my tea I usually hold my hand on the railing, not so that I am afraid that I would fall off that I think it gives some kind of company. Many years back Sushma and I used to stand on the same balcony, hands in hand and looking at each other. It used to rain but we would stand there looking at each other, sometimes even argued and fought on things, but, then I used to convince her. She used to smile and we used to hug each other and forget our problems.

But now Sushma seem to be busy with our marital life. Waking up, looking at our children. And because of that, she is so busy until late night, I don’t want her to wake up early like I do. Otherwise, we would have some time to spend with each other. There is no time when I can talk to her. A weird time pause has taken place in our life. 


Click here to read Part 2: The Promise and Railway Station

Thursday, February 23, 2017

Random Shayari. Hope you like it.

Tere khwabon ko mere khwabon se milne to de,Tu aaye sammne, aisa lage, Jannat ki khusbu hai yaha.Tu jaye gujarr, to aisa lage,Tujhko na kho jau main agar.Tere khwabon ko mere khwabon se milne ne de jara